My 'Swadesh' is my town 'Ghaziabad' and now i know what this expression would mean if uttered by a someone close to the land and who knows the pain of separation.
My love ..my town ..i will miss you ..i will miss ur cool winters...i will miss cool breeze dancing with every pore of me and instilling in me the desire to vanish .....my love!!!
I now know why in old days men and ladies alike were calling their states , Riyasts or Provinces 'Swadesh' ..because i know how dear that place was to them ....and growing is my respect for their aliveness to love their land to extent that it start creating aroma which they must have missed no matter where they go .
My Swadesh is somewhat i would love to present you today with all my love....u name the "Rittu"or season and it is their and best are winters and monsoon.....the day i play football when bliss is falling like drops ...i can only hope that u live the same........i will miss running in cold when every gist of breeze wants to tear u part and want to make ur heart its home forever.....
So is my love
that i was blind which was obvious to eyes
when a friend die in not far neighbour
it was my town which was still a 'Saray'
When i heard news from friends that he..she die
it was my town which was still a place to die
When people ask how safe is your 'Saray'
i say i never encountered a safer 'saray'
i live in swadesh which is mine
and i know it is where no one dies
I will miss u my 'saray'
I will miss your winters and summers alike.
love
Tuesday
Friday
Here I Stand...........TISS
So first semester and the summer process has ended yesterday......and so have I watched the movie Julia & Julie ....pls go and see the movie, u will now why i have mentioned it here.
Many experiences has enriched my life after coming to TISS and many a times wanted to blog but something or other happened that resulted in almost no blogging since I joined TISS ,excluding initial dayz...
Now when much time has passed I wanted to write and write honestly about what I felt throughout the semester and especially during and after the summer process.
Whole semester passed like zuuuu.. and I thank god that I survived..Though not in fabulous manner ...but yes to even survive is like achieving KRA.
Let me again revisit the times when I did thought that let be a drop it or leave things as they are ..and then things started improving and again they deteriorated and again they improved and finally i stand having Tata Steel as my summer placement company, which was the third last company on the second day of the process.
Man!!!i am jumping to the summer process in middle but i can't save it ...i will get 15000 per month and hopefully that in Jamshedpur with all those facilities which Souvik has described but and this is BIG but i feel terrible. I am hurt ...I was hurt throughout the whole process and may be was so throughout my first sem.
When u see people getting placed one after another..some in FMCG..some in Consultancy..with BIg names and u are left ,it do raise a doubt as where I stand and yes it was an eye opener as to what works what don’t and where I lack.
What was going in my mind when i was going through all that ? Same old pattern that I will do this and that and that .....now I can laugh on the fact that this is what I am good at ...dude be grounded.
What are my learnings ? Buddy grow up ....finish things and move on ....people mind business not undefined verbalism....what a insult to creativity ..huh!!....heheh...but yes i need to move on ..Understand that life has many aspects not just speaking what does not make sense or looks Utopian...but hey then how this world will be gifted with theories..Isn’t it the fact that idealism is the breeding ground for theories...for Marx world was perfectly classist...for capitalist it is perfectly profit....for economics human totally rational.....and so on and so forth.
Learnings.....hard work pays....it paid when I did in 12th and used all that during my grad...it worked when I meditated and was gifted with understanding of things people are least concerned of....sincerity cannot be faked ..and it is indeed contagious...so I better start loving this virtue again.
Coming back to the experiences in general, the funniest thing is how people judge each other and i should mark that it is actually and absolutely funny...I, not once but for several times (and it seems it will not end) goes to one lady (yup ladies are best at it) and she say bla bla for other and then u goes to other and you hear another novel perspective and u feel wah ..Life is RICH ...LOL....Boyz masaallah!! have difference,they are different as they are are great liers.I think their tendency for poly-gamy has gifted them this virtue...and thus better beware.
And I must say I am not different...but yes I have become true fan of inherent goodness in each one of us. There were people which I found repulsive initially and I said that in front of others too (actually I wasted a lot of time in airing my opinions) but I must now acknowledge that I have discovered each one of them to be a beautiful human being .People love criticizing and almost have a knack of pulling each other’s leg but then they are also sweet..and irresistibly humane....I don't know how to put it but for me it is loving without judgments. And one thing that I have said to somebody in class and was not much understood and I feel I must re-instate is that ‘ I love to love and I love to be opinionated but I don't love to be judgmental’.
Moving on to politics..Yes this is not-visible yet most powerful current everywhere...so at TISS....nobody can save oneself from that and it is like air i.e.,not apparent until it comes as storm and our Jr. placement committee is example....but I also feel that it is very good tool to provide sustainability to processes and decisions .
Now I would like to continue the process of documenting my experiences at TISS in a regular fashion and hence this new blog http://tiss-o-phila.blogspot.com/. (This post will mark the beginning of the blog)
Love
Many experiences has enriched my life after coming to TISS and many a times wanted to blog but something or other happened that resulted in almost no blogging since I joined TISS ,excluding initial dayz...
Now when much time has passed I wanted to write and write honestly about what I felt throughout the semester and especially during and after the summer process.
Whole semester passed like zuuuu.. and I thank god that I survived..Though not in fabulous manner ...but yes to even survive is like achieving KRA.
Let me again revisit the times when I did thought that let be a drop it or leave things as they are ..and then things started improving and again they deteriorated and again they improved and finally i stand having Tata Steel as my summer placement company, which was the third last company on the second day of the process.
Man!!!i am jumping to the summer process in middle but i can't save it ...i will get 15000 per month and hopefully that in Jamshedpur with all those facilities which Souvik has described but and this is BIG but i feel terrible. I am hurt ...I was hurt throughout the whole process and may be was so throughout my first sem.
When u see people getting placed one after another..some in FMCG..some in Consultancy..with BIg names and u are left ,it do raise a doubt as where I stand and yes it was an eye opener as to what works what don’t and where I lack.
What was going in my mind when i was going through all that ? Same old pattern that I will do this and that and that .....now I can laugh on the fact that this is what I am good at ...dude be grounded.
What are my learnings ? Buddy grow up ....finish things and move on ....people mind business not undefined verbalism....what a insult to creativity ..huh!!....heheh...but yes i need to move on ..Understand that life has many aspects not just speaking what does not make sense or looks Utopian...but hey then how this world will be gifted with theories..Isn’t it the fact that idealism is the breeding ground for theories...for Marx world was perfectly classist...for capitalist it is perfectly profit....for economics human totally rational.....and so on and so forth.
Learnings.....hard work pays....it paid when I did in 12th and used all that during my grad...it worked when I meditated and was gifted with understanding of things people are least concerned of....sincerity cannot be faked ..and it is indeed contagious...so I better start loving this virtue again.
Coming back to the experiences in general, the funniest thing is how people judge each other and i should mark that it is actually and absolutely funny...I, not once but for several times (and it seems it will not end) goes to one lady (yup ladies are best at it) and she say bla bla for other and then u goes to other and you hear another novel perspective and u feel wah ..Life is RICH ...LOL....Boyz masaallah!! have difference,they are different as they are are great liers.I think their tendency for poly-gamy has gifted them this virtue...and thus better beware.
And I must say I am not different...but yes I have become true fan of inherent goodness in each one of us. There were people which I found repulsive initially and I said that in front of others too (actually I wasted a lot of time in airing my opinions) but I must now acknowledge that I have discovered each one of them to be a beautiful human being .People love criticizing and almost have a knack of pulling each other’s leg but then they are also sweet..and irresistibly humane....I don't know how to put it but for me it is loving without judgments. And one thing that I have said to somebody in class and was not much understood and I feel I must re-instate is that ‘ I love to love and I love to be opinionated but I don't love to be judgmental’.
Moving on to politics..Yes this is not-visible yet most powerful current everywhere...so at TISS....nobody can save oneself from that and it is like air i.e.,not apparent until it comes as storm and our Jr. placement committee is example....but I also feel that it is very good tool to provide sustainability to processes and decisions .
Now I would like to continue the process of documenting my experiences at TISS in a regular fashion and hence this new blog http://tiss-o-phila.blogspot.com/. (This post will mark the beginning of the blog)
Love
Life is worth Living
My last post was among the few post which has been written by me in an emotional flow and not under intellectual intoxication and thus will remain one of the closest to my heart.Yet it has compelled me to write this fresh post in quick succession to bring freshness and to avoid misinterpretation.
I was sad that day and had elated days after that and i would like to thanks my readers and this existence to love my prayers. I am now experiencing which many may call getting tuned to the new place with lot more groundedness though i am also conscious of the fact that this may be like getting used to the devil.Yet what i fell is that i am at much more peace ..have adjusted to carry myself in better fashion.... ..and most importantly at ease with myself.
I am spending most of my time at TISS campus and this may also be one of the reason that i am feeling good...having classes for more than 8 hours seems to have taken away my attention from the gloom i described in last post.
This post also demand to describe few of the experiences at TISS classes......the very first observation is that questions in many cases are hindrance to the answers .Isn't amazing that the answers are often sacrificed at altar of faking inquisitiveness and demand to raise better questions.People often loose the track and seems to be looking for the excuse to question what is obvious.Yet i would not like to give impression that i am against questioning rather i feel that questioning is the only way to have inclusive learning .But what i observed is a strange phenomenon as my understanding says that to have solution or answer or creation of understanding one needs to be free of tension in head ..a calm state of mind .Yet when i see people ignoring real question raised by others for they themselves want to fake the question i feel amused .
And i am not speaking of others only but of my own self too... the moment of questioning when questions are asked to be put up can well be equated with fever ....one finds himself in grip of a peculiar tension where he/she is more concerned with raising questions than listening.Listening which is the basic tool for creation of understanding is somewhere lost in this whole process and somehow leads to the defeat of the very purpose of inviting questions which was to have inclusive teaching.One can not assume inclusive or participative teaching when the very individual raising question is not concerned with the questions raised by others and thus can almost be counted to be absent in class for those moments(and mind you the fever takes much more time to calm down then what we may think off.....it is like mud in water which being stirred will take its own time to settle) .
However i also have an experience where people are devoid of questioning because they were never concerned about the teaching and thus i must convey that there is need to have the middle path ........a way that inculcate the inclusive teaching yet create an environment where inquiry is entertained and not the questions.
As one sentence or gem of wisdom that has been part of my learning at TISS from the very beginning is that no criticism is good until it is accompanied by the solution , onus comes on my shoulders to give a alternative and the alternative which comes to my mind is relative ranking or grading of questions.
If the questions raised by the students are subject to grades then i think students will be encouraged to bring quality questions and at the same time this will ensure that the basic spirit of inquiry is never put on hold. I must also acknowledge that there will be certain challenges that will accompany such process, yet i feel that those challenges will only compelled us to bring what was long due.For instance one may say that it will not be feasible to burden a single teacher for simultaneously teaching and consciously jotting down the grades or to check the quality and i suggest that answer to this problem lies in something which may have not been tried earlier i.e, why don't a single class be taken by 2 or more professors together .We teach cooperation ..synergy....coordination......creativity....etc as part of management and i think having more than one teacher will just be like injecting those great sounding words in to blood and bones of the educational system.
Hey.......... i was never intended to dwell this long on the experience at TISS in this post rather wanted to bring some hope to the blog .......but i think this must have given umpteen signs that i am alive and kicking .....lol....i love u life
LOVE
I was sad that day and had elated days after that and i would like to thanks my readers and this existence to love my prayers. I am now experiencing which many may call getting tuned to the new place with lot more groundedness though i am also conscious of the fact that this may be like getting used to the devil.Yet what i fell is that i am at much more peace ..have adjusted to carry myself in better fashion.... ..and most importantly at ease with myself.
I am spending most of my time at TISS campus and this may also be one of the reason that i am feeling good...having classes for more than 8 hours seems to have taken away my attention from the gloom i described in last post.
This post also demand to describe few of the experiences at TISS classes......the very first observation is that questions in many cases are hindrance to the answers .Isn't amazing that the answers are often sacrificed at altar of faking inquisitiveness and demand to raise better questions.People often loose the track and seems to be looking for the excuse to question what is obvious.Yet i would not like to give impression that i am against questioning rather i feel that questioning is the only way to have inclusive learning .But what i observed is a strange phenomenon as my understanding says that to have solution or answer or creation of understanding one needs to be free of tension in head ..a calm state of mind .Yet when i see people ignoring real question raised by others for they themselves want to fake the question i feel amused .
And i am not speaking of others only but of my own self too... the moment of questioning when questions are asked to be put up can well be equated with fever ....one finds himself in grip of a peculiar tension where he/she is more concerned with raising questions than listening.Listening which is the basic tool for creation of understanding is somewhere lost in this whole process and somehow leads to the defeat of the very purpose of inviting questions which was to have inclusive teaching.One can not assume inclusive or participative teaching when the very individual raising question is not concerned with the questions raised by others and thus can almost be counted to be absent in class for those moments(and mind you the fever takes much more time to calm down then what we may think off.....it is like mud in water which being stirred will take its own time to settle) .
However i also have an experience where people are devoid of questioning because they were never concerned about the teaching and thus i must convey that there is need to have the middle path ........a way that inculcate the inclusive teaching yet create an environment where inquiry is entertained and not the questions.
As one sentence or gem of wisdom that has been part of my learning at TISS from the very beginning is that no criticism is good until it is accompanied by the solution , onus comes on my shoulders to give a alternative and the alternative which comes to my mind is relative ranking or grading of questions.
If the questions raised by the students are subject to grades then i think students will be encouraged to bring quality questions and at the same time this will ensure that the basic spirit of inquiry is never put on hold. I must also acknowledge that there will be certain challenges that will accompany such process, yet i feel that those challenges will only compelled us to bring what was long due.For instance one may say that it will not be feasible to burden a single teacher for simultaneously teaching and consciously jotting down the grades or to check the quality and i suggest that answer to this problem lies in something which may have not been tried earlier i.e, why don't a single class be taken by 2 or more professors together .We teach cooperation ..synergy....coordination......creativity....etc as part of management and i think having more than one teacher will just be like injecting those great sounding words in to blood and bones of the educational system.
Hey.......... i was never intended to dwell this long on the experience at TISS in this post rather wanted to bring some hope to the blog .......but i think this must have given umpteen signs that i am alive and kicking .....lol....i love u life
LOVE
Tuesday
Don't know whether it will be right or wrong to pen down my experience at TISS,especially of the past few days as there may be few readers which are from our batch and it feels bit insecure to showcase the hidden part of you ,the internal chatter in my head but nevertheless i want to write it .
Have reached mumbai and to be honest didn't like the place much ,it has a kind of odour which i don't like and which is very peculiar to it.I must also admit that i am not in great spirit either while i am writing this so there may be a subtle layer of sadness that may be evident in this post.
Right now our orientation is going on and had the talent show today and which was just terrific .I have never laughed and clapped so much as i did today at our fabulous convention centre at TISS.
Yet would not like to talk of good things but something that i am at unease with .I am unusually sad and happy here at mumbai.....rather i would like to say that that it is gloom and engagement .I don't know why i am feeling so but yes i do feel that way here and may be this is the first time i am feeling home sick ............just don't know .
It feels that there may be some basic questions unanswered to myself creating this gloom and the most important among them seems to be of "WHY ?" i am just unable to satisfy myself about the reason of my existence and i see many reasons to it ,though my readers will be better judge.One of the reason seems a sudden twist in form of being surrounded by so many strangers in form of roommates as well as classmates ,though i must say that they are the among few great souls and i am no more a stranger to them(especially to my roommates) .It is just that u find more people to speak in ur mind...and i think many of u must have noticed that we think with an object in our mind and which in most of the cases in an individual and here i have found so many of them and with such speed that may be my mind is taking time to make prespective.
Secondly and i think most and importantly is the sudden questioning about my need to socialize.....i was never great at socializing and accept when many says that i love to live in my own world but here when u are new to so many things one just can not over emphasize the need of communication and which seems to brew up a kind of inner crisis for me.I am just asking myself what's the need of talking ...talking so much ...a kind of pretense ...and this become more acute as i am not feeling grounded.
Yeaaahhh...this is the problem i am not feeling grounded..i am feeling lost ..completely lost ...i have become stranger to self and this strange lonliness is growing ......and an honest answer may be because of my surrounding ....i was always very sensitive to the odour and the place i am living at is full of odours..from deos..to intolerable smell of kerosene coming from neighbourhood because of ongoing construction.And such conditions are raising questions in mind whether i should continue with all this or shall withdraw,withdraw from don't know what ......
I must say explicitly that though i have been happier today ............i am greatly unhappy now........................can break in to tears .................
Let me pray and finish this post
O u great seer guide me and show me the path to the abode of tranquility ,
and provide me courage to tread the path to the temple of inner peace ,which is the fountain of all glory .
I pray to thee to make me able to praise thou and praise the beauty of your existence ,
and hence grant me the boon of river as to end my journey in great sea of your immortal bliss
Have reached mumbai and to be honest didn't like the place much ,it has a kind of odour which i don't like and which is very peculiar to it.I must also admit that i am not in great spirit either while i am writing this so there may be a subtle layer of sadness that may be evident in this post.
Right now our orientation is going on and had the talent show today and which was just terrific .I have never laughed and clapped so much as i did today at our fabulous convention centre at TISS.
Yet would not like to talk of good things but something that i am at unease with .I am unusually sad and happy here at mumbai.....rather i would like to say that that it is gloom and engagement .I don't know why i am feeling so but yes i do feel that way here and may be this is the first time i am feeling home sick ............just don't know .
It feels that there may be some basic questions unanswered to myself creating this gloom and the most important among them seems to be of "WHY ?" i am just unable to satisfy myself about the reason of my existence and i see many reasons to it ,though my readers will be better judge.One of the reason seems a sudden twist in form of being surrounded by so many strangers in form of roommates as well as classmates ,though i must say that they are the among few great souls and i am no more a stranger to them(especially to my roommates) .It is just that u find more people to speak in ur mind...and i think many of u must have noticed that we think with an object in our mind and which in most of the cases in an individual and here i have found so many of them and with such speed that may be my mind is taking time to make prespective.
Secondly and i think most and importantly is the sudden questioning about my need to socialize.....i was never great at socializing and accept when many says that i love to live in my own world but here when u are new to so many things one just can not over emphasize the need of communication and which seems to brew up a kind of inner crisis for me.I am just asking myself what's the need of talking ...talking so much ...a kind of pretense ...and this become more acute as i am not feeling grounded.
Yeaaahhh...this is the problem i am not feeling grounded..i am feeling lost ..completely lost ...i have become stranger to self and this strange lonliness is growing ......and an honest answer may be because of my surrounding ....i was always very sensitive to the odour and the place i am living at is full of odours..from deos..to intolerable smell of kerosene coming from neighbourhood because of ongoing construction.And such conditions are raising questions in mind whether i should continue with all this or shall withdraw,withdraw from don't know what ......
I must say explicitly that though i have been happier today ............i am greatly unhappy now........................can break in to tears .................
Let me pray and finish this post
O u great seer guide me and show me the path to the abode of tranquility ,
and provide me courage to tread the path to the temple of inner peace ,which is the fountain of all glory .
I pray to thee to make me able to praise thou and praise the beauty of your existence ,
and hence grant me the boon of river as to end my journey in great sea of your immortal bliss
Sunday
A Provisional TISSian........
FINALLY!! my journey has crossed an important milestone ,which undeniably has brought change unknown and unexperienced before.The milestone is getting selected for M.A. in Human Resources and Labour relations at Tata Institute of Social Sciences(TISS).My hard work which presumably was in the line of making better perspective of myself and the world has finally yielded a place at one of the most coveted institute and course and above landed me at place which will allow me to flourish in the way i want.
The interview and group discussion for the above mentioned course are something to talk about ,especially personal interview.Group discussion went normal and when i say normal then it is good as me being one of the main speaker with3-4 valid entries and few other supporting entries. It was personal interview which actually went so good that it made me feel that it has gone exceptionally well to allow my selection.
Personal interview started with the basic questioning on academics i.e, Memorandum of Association(MOA),Article of Associations(AOA) ,clauses in them etc but real game started with the question "Why you want to pursue M.A. in Hr ?" and my reply which somehow got delivered through me looked so cosmetic or well prepared that they asked whether i have taken coaching for it or not.The answer for the above question begin with declaration of my intention as to have deep interest in understanding Humans ,especially as why some people reach zenith of their potential while others remains at bottom of their possibilities.I presented them the classic philosophy of mental formation in Buddhism i.e, how any mental formation whether it be of anger or compassion,success or failure etc comes in to existence and then given them new or contemporary words for the same.
Let me give brief description of the same to all my readers.Mental formation has four integral elements i.e,
1.Seed ,
2.Supporting Conditions,
3.Object ,and
4.Persistence .
and every mental formation,which ultimately gets manifested in outer world is made up of the above four elements only.To elaborate further or to give them contemporary meaning just equated 'Seed' with 'inside -out approach' advocated by great writer and coach Stephen R.Covey in "The Seven Habits of highly effective people",Supporting conditions to 'outside- in approach' as beautifully described in "Tipping point" by Malcom Gadwell,brought out the importance of 'object' with authority-responsibility relationship (although now i can add the tag line as "begin with the end in mind" to it though didn't use it then) and finally 'persistence' with rule of constant practice as again emphasized by Malcom Gladwell in his new release Outliers.In order to not lengthen the post i am providing the links and escaping detailed explanation.However i must underline the fact that during interview the emphasis was on the fact that how contradictory looking approaches e.g., Inside- Out approach and Outside-In approach which are upside down to each other are actually complementary and the requirement is to to synthesize them which i see happening through this philosophy of mental formation. And with my own wonderment i said that all and thus faced initial skepticism as if already mugged up all this for personal interview from the panel .
Another important Philosophy which unlike above has more roots in me and which i disclosed after it was that of "PRATHAM".I will call this strategy as "Philosophy of Success" or a pillar upon which it rest or it can also be said to be "Philosophy of Success Through Ethics".Under it explained to them the beauty of the word "Pratham" which in Hindi means "one who stops first' and is used for denoting a winner. Thus the beauty lies in convergence of the literal meaning of this term 'Pratham' and its usage .This help us to appreciate that winner is not the one who walks fastest or one who walks for greater distance or who cover the distance in shortest of time but the one who knows when or where to STOP.And as any hypothesis stands the test in many spheres of life , it translates (and conveyed by me to interviewers) in to mindfulness in an individual life and risk management ,failure management and importance of ethical culture or ethics in corporate life .This was supported by name of Buddha and life of Dhiru Bahi Amabani and given the reference of learning about Dhiru Bahi being a best failure manger as explained to me by Prof,. Harkirat Singh at IIFT(read the preceding post to have a introduction of the institute and my learnings form it ).
Now comes another real test and that was in form of question of ideal in my life for which i given them the name of Ela Bhatt and sited the reason of her ability of gracious exit .I also compared her with Verghese Kurein,father of White Revolution in India as difference in their leadership style.
And so comes the another related question , which may be out of my excessive usage of philosophy as they asked"what actually i want to be in life,what all things i want to have?"and this question was not a product of intellect alone but i could see in the eyes of MR. Mulla ,one of the panelist to really want to know what i want in life .
Now to be honest this is one of the most difficult question in my life,especially when i am asked to answer it in public.This question has been a Achilles Heel not only at TISS but interviews at other colleges also mainly because what i speak at interviews and what i really want from life is generally sited as inconsistent with situation most of the interview panels find me in.And the ultimate goal to me and i feel for any person devoted to reality will be is that of RENUNCIATION(Vairagya) and i can say on hindsight that honesty of that question from Mr. Mulla and some unexplainable courage lead me to divulge this secret of mine.And only i know what i was feeling then, like as if striped naked before those people. Though i was in my nudity but it was more of a uninhibited naked ease which i enjoyed exaltedly .Just try to feel as how any of us actually feel when some of the best kept secret or fantasy gets revealed to others suddenly and with out making conscious effort from our side.
Now after the confession came one question- cum- observance which i think will be coming to minds of the readers also i.e, "How you will be a HR manager with those lofty principles of gracious exit and renunciation ?" which they just refined and made as "How with such lofty principles you will be a different HR manager ?" and my goodness then occurred a revelation to me also that i have grown in to an incurable philosopher or rather "Materialistic philosopher"as one of my she-friend described me once and uttered which was just a explanation of the art of communication.As my observance goes and one can even site plagiarism here (e.g., Socrates) , i have often seen intelligent people in a communication trap of inability to bring the desired course of action and so once in a while my mind, as in ahaa.. moments, given me insight as to the reason of same.I have seen that many people especially intelligent and one which commands a higher position are pressed with questions which is taken up by them as 'question on the face' and which is the mistake they commit at the very first place.They hardly understand or realize that the question is a test and a test not to provide answer but solution and solution lies in intelligent questioning itself rather than cosmetic intelligent answers.I just introduce this concept to the panel with example of Jesus using parable and again the name (which now i know i use most) i.e., of Buddha for using same art.
I was here interrupted in between and another question was asked from the lady in the panel i.e.,'Why you are going for the course when you are so well read,already?" and for a second i realized that it might have gone over the top or just TOO much to deliver in an interview and just within that moment i was also afraid as whether this question really to be taken or has sarcasm in it .But as situation demanded i started speaking with a pause and then described them an occurrence which happened in real and coincidentally while filling Detailed Application Form (DAF) for TISS only, as i told them how while writing the DAF i first used plain white paper with out any lines and then tried on the paper with lines drawn by pencil ..................here ... i was again interrupted(and that for good) and came the comment which made my day especially because it was from person whom from my first sight i could tell he is THE MAN i,e MR. Mulla and the comment was "You can be a good Corporate Guru" and then for a moment my whole being become almost a reverence in itself to Mr. Mulla as it became more of self-discovery and because the declaration of same was from mouth of somebody whom you started to admire from the very first sight.
As after the comment i was asked to resume , i just gave the last touch as to explain them the importance of platform from the writing up of the DAF with plain paper and one with lines drwan, as there was considerable difference in the writing and the symmetry(as the one with lines drawn gave the better results) though the content was same and so applies to the M.A. in HR which is going to provide a platform and that i wanted from the course.
And then a small pause,all the three people looked towards each other and then final adieu and goodbye wish of having great time ahead by Mr. Mulla himself(ummmhhh).
Now that was incurable me and the result of which has been positive and has given a kind of fresh morning to my life .I must have been among the happiest lot on earth at the moment i saw my result and especially exalted with the felling that they selected me for 'WHAT I AM" and appreciated the uniqueness with which i am gifted.
Life has changed a lot as i have also successfully delivered a 'Talk Cum Sharing(TcS) " with title "Financial Literacy" after the results being announced.The talk was a success with average point of over 9 on the scale of 10 as provided, under the feedback form, by people which attended it .And i think after reading the above you all must have got the idea what i must have delivered in the talk.Though hardly i included anything from what i said in the interview but it was almost a Song From My Heart.TcS(Talks cum Sharing) was structured for duration of 3 hours,consisting of two parts of 1 1/2 Hours each while first enumerating basic principles of life( Actually have many to share which are either learnt or discovered) including "Philosophy of Education","HOW ? ",'WHY" and "Mental Formation"in brief.Second part of the TcS was about core "Financial Literacy","Quantification of Love and Hate list items","Wealth Ratio" and some "Eccentric Tricks to be happy"(this last one was from a guest ).
Now it seems there lies a interesting and simple life and i am ready to face it with wisdom that "Life is meant to be difficult".
Love.......
Enjoy......
The interview and group discussion for the above mentioned course are something to talk about ,especially personal interview.Group discussion went normal and when i say normal then it is good as me being one of the main speaker with3-4 valid entries and few other supporting entries. It was personal interview which actually went so good that it made me feel that it has gone exceptionally well to allow my selection.
Personal interview started with the basic questioning on academics i.e, Memorandum of Association(MOA),Article of Associations(AOA) ,clauses in them etc but real game started with the question "Why you want to pursue M.A. in Hr ?" and my reply which somehow got delivered through me looked so cosmetic or well prepared that they asked whether i have taken coaching for it or not.The answer for the above question begin with declaration of my intention as to have deep interest in understanding Humans ,especially as why some people reach zenith of their potential while others remains at bottom of their possibilities.I presented them the classic philosophy of mental formation in Buddhism i.e, how any mental formation whether it be of anger or compassion,success or failure etc comes in to existence and then given them new or contemporary words for the same.
Let me give brief description of the same to all my readers.Mental formation has four integral elements i.e,
1.Seed ,
2.Supporting Conditions,
3.Object ,and
4.Persistence .
and every mental formation,which ultimately gets manifested in outer world is made up of the above four elements only.To elaborate further or to give them contemporary meaning just equated 'Seed' with 'inside -out approach' advocated by great writer and coach Stephen R.Covey in "The Seven Habits of highly effective people",Supporting conditions to 'outside- in approach' as beautifully described in "Tipping point" by Malcom Gadwell,brought out the importance of 'object' with authority-responsibility relationship (although now i can add the tag line as "begin with the end in mind" to it though didn't use it then) and finally 'persistence' with rule of constant practice as again emphasized by Malcom Gladwell in his new release Outliers.In order to not lengthen the post i am providing the links and escaping detailed explanation.However i must underline the fact that during interview the emphasis was on the fact that how contradictory looking approaches e.g., Inside- Out approach and Outside-In approach which are upside down to each other are actually complementary and the requirement is to to synthesize them which i see happening through this philosophy of mental formation. And with my own wonderment i said that all and thus faced initial skepticism as if already mugged up all this for personal interview from the panel .
Another important Philosophy which unlike above has more roots in me and which i disclosed after it was that of "PRATHAM".I will call this strategy as "Philosophy of Success" or a pillar upon which it rest or it can also be said to be "Philosophy of Success Through Ethics".Under it explained to them the beauty of the word "Pratham" which in Hindi means "one who stops first' and is used for denoting a winner. Thus the beauty lies in convergence of the literal meaning of this term 'Pratham' and its usage .This help us to appreciate that winner is not the one who walks fastest or one who walks for greater distance or who cover the distance in shortest of time but the one who knows when or where to STOP.And as any hypothesis stands the test in many spheres of life , it translates (and conveyed by me to interviewers) in to mindfulness in an individual life and risk management ,failure management and importance of ethical culture or ethics in corporate life .This was supported by name of Buddha and life of Dhiru Bahi Amabani and given the reference of learning about Dhiru Bahi being a best failure manger as explained to me by Prof,. Harkirat Singh at IIFT(read the preceding post to have a introduction of the institute and my learnings form it ).
Now comes another real test and that was in form of question of ideal in my life for which i given them the name of Ela Bhatt and sited the reason of her ability of gracious exit .I also compared her with Verghese Kurein,father of White Revolution in India as difference in their leadership style.
And so comes the another related question , which may be out of my excessive usage of philosophy as they asked"what actually i want to be in life,what all things i want to have?"and this question was not a product of intellect alone but i could see in the eyes of MR. Mulla ,one of the panelist to really want to know what i want in life .
Now to be honest this is one of the most difficult question in my life,especially when i am asked to answer it in public.This question has been a Achilles Heel not only at TISS but interviews at other colleges also mainly because what i speak at interviews and what i really want from life is generally sited as inconsistent with situation most of the interview panels find me in.And the ultimate goal to me and i feel for any person devoted to reality will be is that of RENUNCIATION(Vairagya) and i can say on hindsight that honesty of that question from Mr. Mulla and some unexplainable courage lead me to divulge this secret of mine.And only i know what i was feeling then, like as if striped naked before those people. Though i was in my nudity but it was more of a uninhibited naked ease which i enjoyed exaltedly .Just try to feel as how any of us actually feel when some of the best kept secret or fantasy gets revealed to others suddenly and with out making conscious effort from our side.
Now after the confession came one question- cum- observance which i think will be coming to minds of the readers also i.e, "How you will be a HR manager with those lofty principles of gracious exit and renunciation ?" which they just refined and made as "How with such lofty principles you will be a different HR manager ?" and my goodness then occurred a revelation to me also that i have grown in to an incurable philosopher or rather "Materialistic philosopher"as one of my she-friend described me once and uttered which was just a explanation of the art of communication.As my observance goes and one can even site plagiarism here (e.g., Socrates) , i have often seen intelligent people in a communication trap of inability to bring the desired course of action and so once in a while my mind, as in ahaa.. moments, given me insight as to the reason of same.I have seen that many people especially intelligent and one which commands a higher position are pressed with questions which is taken up by them as 'question on the face' and which is the mistake they commit at the very first place.They hardly understand or realize that the question is a test and a test not to provide answer but solution and solution lies in intelligent questioning itself rather than cosmetic intelligent answers.I just introduce this concept to the panel with example of Jesus using parable and again the name (which now i know i use most) i.e., of Buddha for using same art.
I was here interrupted in between and another question was asked from the lady in the panel i.e.,'Why you are going for the course when you are so well read,already?" and for a second i realized that it might have gone over the top or just TOO much to deliver in an interview and just within that moment i was also afraid as whether this question really to be taken or has sarcasm in it .But as situation demanded i started speaking with a pause and then described them an occurrence which happened in real and coincidentally while filling Detailed Application Form (DAF) for TISS only, as i told them how while writing the DAF i first used plain white paper with out any lines and then tried on the paper with lines drawn by pencil ..................here ... i was again interrupted(and that for good) and came the comment which made my day especially because it was from person whom from my first sight i could tell he is THE MAN i,e MR. Mulla and the comment was "You can be a good Corporate Guru" and then for a moment my whole being become almost a reverence in itself to Mr. Mulla as it became more of self-discovery and because the declaration of same was from mouth of somebody whom you started to admire from the very first sight.
As after the comment i was asked to resume , i just gave the last touch as to explain them the importance of platform from the writing up of the DAF with plain paper and one with lines drwan, as there was considerable difference in the writing and the symmetry(as the one with lines drawn gave the better results) though the content was same and so applies to the M.A. in HR which is going to provide a platform and that i wanted from the course.
And then a small pause,all the three people looked towards each other and then final adieu and goodbye wish of having great time ahead by Mr. Mulla himself(ummmhhh).
Now that was incurable me and the result of which has been positive and has given a kind of fresh morning to my life .I must have been among the happiest lot on earth at the moment i saw my result and especially exalted with the felling that they selected me for 'WHAT I AM" and appreciated the uniqueness with which i am gifted.
Life has changed a lot as i have also successfully delivered a 'Talk Cum Sharing(TcS) " with title "Financial Literacy" after the results being announced.The talk was a success with average point of over 9 on the scale of 10 as provided, under the feedback form, by people which attended it .And i think after reading the above you all must have got the idea what i must have delivered in the talk.Though hardly i included anything from what i said in the interview but it was almost a Song From My Heart.TcS(Talks cum Sharing) was structured for duration of 3 hours,consisting of two parts of 1 1/2 Hours each while first enumerating basic principles of life( Actually have many to share which are either learnt or discovered) including "Philosophy of Education","HOW ? ",'WHY" and "Mental Formation"in brief.Second part of the TcS was about core "Financial Literacy","Quantification of Love and Hate list items","Wealth Ratio" and some "Eccentric Tricks to be happy"(this last one was from a guest ).
Now it seems there lies a interesting and simple life and i am ready to face it with wisdom that "Life is meant to be difficult".
Love.......
Enjoy......
Wednesday
Financial world - A philosophical take
Let me discuss and share few things which i found similar in the financial world(through the course of certificate in financial and capital markets from IIFT) and which correspond to general life and are beautiful to comprehend.
1.First let me share what i learn and could decipher about my life through insight gained from this course ,and the jewel is the positive correlation between the risk and return.Being mesmerized by osho and the bliss which his voice and intellect opens before one's heart ,i now in hindsight feels that ignorance has played a great role in my life ,may be that's why they say ignorance is bliss,for it was and is folly to assume that enlightenment can be achieved without risk .Rather for such a huge return, risk is absolute.Yet i must mention that risk was worth taking ,though i have taken enough loss but i still hanker or hope to loose myself totally as seed do to become a plant or bud creating the way for flower to blossom.Amir Khusro comes to my mind and the beautiful lines which he wrote about love fills myheart "khusrau dariya prem ka ulti va ki dhar, jo ubra so dub gaya ,jo duba so par " which mean that strange are the ways of love,the one who wins and able to save himself in the sea of love actually is a looser and one who gives himself completely i.e, lost himself comes as winner .
2.Secondly,i learned what can be said to be the extension of what i mentioned earlier and which is in wider sense is that how things lure ,especially Samsara as similar to the sub- prime crisis where those Investment banks or bankers closed their eyes to the risk that may be out there for such high returns(which they were earning and offering ) and thus these tbtf(too big too fall) got to taste dust.Similarly individuals are offered with such lucrative means of satisfying one senses that he fails to see what lies behind them i.e, constant suffering under the rule of part of him or her over the whole of his life or true self .
3.In stock markets,as similar to samsara, gain of some is loss to other/s and thus there is always zero sum game i.e, SAM(equal)-SARA(meaning) ,and thus,life offers perfection in imperfection.Its wise to remember that this world will remain as it is ,may get transformed but from upper view will remain same(please don't misunderstood it as against the theory of karmas of doing good deeds) ,and thus as wise people conclude the best one can offer or get is droping of the coin and not sticking to any of its faces and thus be a "drashta" or an observer of all this game or "lila".
4. I spoke of investment banking and its condition(i.e., investment banking has disappeared) and from here comes the another good jewel and that is reverence for death .Now for longtime we(as an indian) have been labeled as nihilist and more so with Buddha and for the reason that we used to pray to lord of death i.e, shiva or goddess of destruction i,e Ma KAli or used to preach that how to handle death .Yet the best of corporate world consist of people which revere the death i.e, dissolution or failure.Dhirubahi Mabani was a great failure manager, so are other in their own ways ,take buffet or any one ,the thing that is common is sense of death i.e, failure and all of them revere it and so make killing out of it .Thus revere death as it is only thing which we can be sure about ,to people with inner journey i would just say that every meditation must be judged with touch stone of death .
5. Last point that i would like to add is my learning of relationship between mind and matter (body) as when i was going to give presentation for merger between Time Warner and AOL ,what was apparent to me was that though this whole merger had a strong soul but it fails utterly when comes to body and mind to execute it .And this brought before me, the age long debate about who precedes whom i.e, whether matter or body precede soul or vice versa And with this merger a part of question is answered that the soul is impotent in absence of mind and body, as this merger lacking a structure to carry out its vision or reflection in soul i.e, about convergence of the tech and entertainment industry failed .Ultimately, what i could get from this is that its immaterial to search for who preceded whom but thing is that we need to start from where we are and from this "here and now" we can see that soul(something subtle) is there and in which desires are reflected but what is required to fulfill these reflections in soul is the mind and body which should act as means or tool to achieve those fare-perceived reflections.
Its been great writing so far,
wish my readers great understanding .........
1.First let me share what i learn and could decipher about my life through insight gained from this course ,and the jewel is the positive correlation between the risk and return.Being mesmerized by osho and the bliss which his voice and intellect opens before one's heart ,i now in hindsight feels that ignorance has played a great role in my life ,may be that's why they say ignorance is bliss,for it was and is folly to assume that enlightenment can be achieved without risk .Rather for such a huge return, risk is absolute.Yet i must mention that risk was worth taking ,though i have taken enough loss but i still hanker or hope to loose myself totally as seed do to become a plant or bud creating the way for flower to blossom.Amir Khusro comes to my mind and the beautiful lines which he wrote about love fills myheart "khusrau dariya prem ka ulti va ki dhar, jo ubra so dub gaya ,jo duba so par " which mean that strange are the ways of love,the one who wins and able to save himself in the sea of love actually is a looser and one who gives himself completely i.e, lost himself comes as winner .
2.Secondly,i learned what can be said to be the extension of what i mentioned earlier and which is in wider sense is that how things lure ,especially Samsara as similar to the sub- prime crisis where those Investment banks or bankers closed their eyes to the risk that may be out there for such high returns(which they were earning and offering ) and thus these tbtf(too big too fall) got to taste dust.Similarly individuals are offered with such lucrative means of satisfying one senses that he fails to see what lies behind them i.e, constant suffering under the rule of part of him or her over the whole of his life or true self .
3.In stock markets,as similar to samsara, gain of some is loss to other/s and thus there is always zero sum game i.e, SAM(equal)-SARA(meaning) ,and thus,life offers perfection in imperfection.Its wise to remember that this world will remain as it is ,may get transformed but from upper view will remain same(please don't misunderstood it as against the theory of karmas of doing good deeds) ,and thus as wise people conclude the best one can offer or get is droping of the coin and not sticking to any of its faces and thus be a "drashta" or an observer of all this game or "lila".
4. I spoke of investment banking and its condition(i.e., investment banking has disappeared) and from here comes the another good jewel and that is reverence for death .Now for longtime we(as an indian) have been labeled as nihilist and more so with Buddha and for the reason that we used to pray to lord of death i.e, shiva or goddess of destruction i,e Ma KAli or used to preach that how to handle death .Yet the best of corporate world consist of people which revere the death i.e, dissolution or failure.Dhirubahi Mabani was a great failure manager, so are other in their own ways ,take buffet or any one ,the thing that is common is sense of death i.e, failure and all of them revere it and so make killing out of it .Thus revere death as it is only thing which we can be sure about ,to people with inner journey i would just say that every meditation must be judged with touch stone of death .
5. Last point that i would like to add is my learning of relationship between mind and matter (body) as when i was going to give presentation for merger between Time Warner and AOL ,what was apparent to me was that though this whole merger had a strong soul but it fails utterly when comes to body and mind to execute it .And this brought before me, the age long debate about who precedes whom i.e, whether matter or body precede soul or vice versa And with this merger a part of question is answered that the soul is impotent in absence of mind and body, as this merger lacking a structure to carry out its vision or reflection in soul i.e, about convergence of the tech and entertainment industry failed .Ultimately, what i could get from this is that its immaterial to search for who preceded whom but thing is that we need to start from where we are and from this "here and now" we can see that soul(something subtle) is there and in which desires are reflected but what is required to fulfill these reflections in soul is the mind and body which should act as means or tool to achieve those fare-perceived reflections.
Its been great writing so far,
wish my readers great understanding .........
Sunday
Language : What it is ?
I just read the lines or the fact, that few of philologist say that the growth of language skills or speech in humans can be attributed to their ability to lie.Now this may be true or not but one things that attracted me in this" believe it or not" statement or hypothesis is that it points out to some inherent and deep thoughts regarding the speech and the language.
Often language is like flashy petals of flowers, to attract the attention of a fly , which is inherently a quasi-tool and serve to the great longing to seek attention Or like A peacock attracting peahen through his colorful dance and we all know its not for wings that peahen comes but for peacock in wholeness.Or simply we can compare language to the advertisement to attract prospective customers to our product where advertisement is a poor replica of the product and which includes much more rubbish or trash having nothing about the product it selling.
And so a "Gimmick" or "Invitation" would be the right term for speech.
Now many of us must have experienced the situations where we convey what we don't want, like in situations where we decided to speak good to our foe but the moment he comes before us we loose our grip and sometimes when we express way above what we intend to do and this brings us to interesting observation that actually the language may be a refined phenomenon but it is an outcome of the mere will to express or communicate oneself.
The language, which is a product of mind is then not something concrete or"rock on which we can build our home" but like sand which is transitory and subject to change more frequently .Rather poetically it is as a "song of expression" of a over flowing humankind .
But what is interesting is how these particle of sands or words are able to abstract or obfuscate the real rock or in some rare cases can lead to it .These particles of sand ,words being subject to change are bestowed with great blessing of creating sand storms and often the boon of freedom to loom large and long after their initial start up or there's unleashment .
However what is almost glaring is the men's forgotten ability to build up his home on solid rick ,and let me take emotions as solid ones here ,and to dwell on the mere words .May be the evolution of man from man to present cultured human which indeed can be said to be the journey from heart to head has some role in it .
May be some day in history men found out that he has moved enough ,have taken much beating and now let him rest and thus he found out logic and words to support it , as Khalil said "god rest in reason" .
But indeed men has loved to be on extremes and may be middle path is the only minority in this "samsara" and so the humanity got divided in to "rest-ies" and "mov-ies" and i must admit that i really mean literally in meaning of these two terms i used here, for what else we(this part of world) compared world than to a movie or constant bewildered moving .And so the division in this manner surfaced at macro may have got imbibed into micro and lead to what we have today a schizophrenic man which is always having trouble over rest and choice to move .
And this division is of great value for we have people which have mastered the art of verbiage and there are few which have got completely engrossed in to themselves to be taciturn and we really miss the people which are somewhere in middle and can be of any help to us or to say we miss "Guru Dwaras".
Now comes the real part of my post,
Words are utilitarian and not reality ,they can be said to be the product of the urge in human to express himself ,to share what he have of anger and anguish or bliss and festivity .
Words are the means to bring out what the conveyor wants and not the reality of what the conveyor is made up of .When i speak of this fact, religion is what playing in my backdrop for no phenomenon is as widespread and as misunderstood as religion and words used therein for they are means to achieve end ,mostly to restore sanity or inculcate what is precisely can be called really humane but the death and blood these words brought to the world are just pointing out how we missed out the rock under the"hijab" or cover of sand .
The theory of karma and many births in Indian religions and one birth with final Judgement day in Abraham oriented one's are both expression of urge of an enlightened thought of bringing out responsibility back to men with freedom to choose and amazingly both are even facts to me for who knows know that both phenomenon exist and have great role to play in "bardo of death and life". Yet many ,the majority fights over the mere change of words for they forget that words are just pointers and are coming out of sheer joy of enlightened capacity to speak what is in the existence .
Its not even out of choice of enlightened people but the sheer urge to share what they have visited and that is brought in terms most appropriate to the people .
One another beautiful example is from Upanishads where often the "Brahman" or god or Allah is explained with no diagnostic trait but terms like "tat" which mean "that " or "Turiya" which stands for"beyond three" which categorically speaks out of the mere understanding of those great ancestors of ours that words can best be the "billboards" as if "pointing towards moon" and not more than that .
Nome coming to earth ,this understanding is also capable of healing much wounds which have surfaced due to "water tight compartments" born out of logic for we know how often we encounter the women breed, which can be said to be truly reigning the space of words with there sheer capacity to play with them and often to mean and contradict what they really want .Men and women are not from mars and Venus but what comes out is fact that the priority or concern over words in man is unlike women ,man gives much more importance to words and their meaning unlike women which knows more of emotions and thus are more closer or is wiser to judge a man than a man itself.
In relationships where we often become victims of words spoken to us in past or where we ignore the feelings or heart for the words or mind and ends up in causing sufferings to us and others can well be dealt more competently through this understanding .
Another help from this understanding could be that we become able to distinguish between what is a provocation to talk from when we really mean our talk .And as we see that many people even in formal or eminent discussions say a group discussion for post graduate diploma in management for which i prepare ,there are people which have sole purpose to cater the attention and not presenting the solution and which i feel shall be the case in reality too for i have witnessed myself people dying for attention than being a part of solution .May be this can help us out to figure out what is essential and what is not.
Or
Simply the very ability to keep in mind the fact that words are mere expression of feelings ,we may master the art of watchfulness of whole being of a human than just concentrating on the "particle of sands" for how could be a man insipid if he has been properly tasted by us .
May all the sentient beings enjoy happiness ,and the causes of happiness.
May they be free from sufferings and causes of sufferings.
May they never be separated from great happiness which is devoid of sufferings and And may they dwell is great equanimity which knows no attachment and aversion .
Great LOve
"Forgiveness Is A Form Of Freedom"
"Remembrance Is A Form Of Meeting"
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